Wednesday, December 23, 2009
I DID IT!!!!!!!!
I totally get my new running shoes, I met my goal, and I'm so happy. Thanks to Dagny for cheering me up. I'm still going to continue working out (hopefully) but I can feel myself getting stronger, especially in the stomach muscles. Once I pick them out, I should take a picture and post my new shoes. :) Merry Christmas everyone!
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Struggling to climb back on the wagon when its speeding away at 90 miles an hour
I sometimes find myself in a funk. Lots of different things put me there, children put me there a lot, but thats a different story.
My weight puts me there the a good portion of the time too. I was always the "skinny" girl, but I didn't realize how much of that was how much I was running all the time with track and cross country. Ever since I quit those, my weight has been a constant struggle, save one time. Last year I joined a gym, it was wonderful. I was working out five times a week, doing cardio and strength training, and getting back to being skinny, then my husband stepped in. I swear to this day its because I pointed out to him how much smaller my chest was becomig and how great it was, he denys everything. He "convinced" me how much money we could save in the long run if he bought me my own eliptical machine and then I could work out at home. Since then, rather than losing weight, or even maintaining, I have been gaining again.
I really want new running shoes for my birthday (although my secret want for a birthday present is another gym membership) and I've told myself that I have to lose some weight in order to "earn" my birthday present. So, I've been trying to climb back on the wagon after falling off, and I feel as though its going too fast for me. Sometimes I just want to give up and be fat, but I already feel so gross and just a "little bit" overweight.
I've been "better" about working out each night, I'm just trying to keep it all in perspective, but I seriously think that I'm going to have to starve myself and still work out each day in order to make my goal. Wish me luck, because I really want new shoes.
My weight puts me there the a good portion of the time too. I was always the "skinny" girl, but I didn't realize how much of that was how much I was running all the time with track and cross country. Ever since I quit those, my weight has been a constant struggle, save one time. Last year I joined a gym, it was wonderful. I was working out five times a week, doing cardio and strength training, and getting back to being skinny, then my husband stepped in. I swear to this day its because I pointed out to him how much smaller my chest was becomig and how great it was, he denys everything. He "convinced" me how much money we could save in the long run if he bought me my own eliptical machine and then I could work out at home. Since then, rather than losing weight, or even maintaining, I have been gaining again.
I really want new running shoes for my birthday (although my secret want for a birthday present is another gym membership) and I've told myself that I have to lose some weight in order to "earn" my birthday present. So, I've been trying to climb back on the wagon after falling off, and I feel as though its going too fast for me. Sometimes I just want to give up and be fat, but I already feel so gross and just a "little bit" overweight.
I've been "better" about working out each night, I'm just trying to keep it all in perspective, but I seriously think that I'm going to have to starve myself and still work out each day in order to make my goal. Wish me luck, because I really want new shoes.
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